Things are really looking up

Well its been 8 months since Kayla got admitted to the Children's center. My baby is finally coming home October 1, 2009. She has improved so much since she has been there. She is now doing pivot transfers so its not going to kill my back when I have to lift her anymore to put her in her chair, because she is going to be doing most of the work. I am really excited about her coming home but I am also really nervous too. It has been 8 months since I have had her home and I am so afraid that I am going to do something wrong and mess up. I know we can't just pick up and go anymore like we have been able to do for the last 8 months. But it will all be worth it to have my little girl home with me again.

David and his mom have been awesome in being there and supporting me in this transition. David is also scared but I know we will be able to handle it and we will be fine. I am so excited that I get to take her to church with us again. I miss doing stuff like that as a family with her. Our church has a awesome CP class for Kayla.

Krystal, David's daughter is so excited about Kayla coming home, I know she will be excited to have her go to school with her. And grandma is doing so much to help make the transition go as smooth as possible she has done so much for us I don't know how I can ever repay her. But I know her and she does it because she wants to.

Everything has been so good lately:
We had to have the lift on the van fixed because a bolt broke and we couldn't use the lift at all without this bolt. Well they went ahead and replaced both bolts. Well it was going to cost us 317.88 to get it fixed and we had no idea how we were going to come up with the money. Well last Wednesday at church after choir one of the guys walked up to David and just handed him 20.00; Well then last Sunday one of the ladies handed me 70.00 I was like WOW God is so good and he will provide. So we need 225.00 more to be able to get it. Well our sunday school class is helping with that. Then the Children's center paid the balance so we are going to use to money from our Sunday school class and get her new tie downs for safety reasons. And David's mom gave us money to get her diapers, bibs, and absorbant pads for her wheelchair and her bed. I am so glad things are looking up for us.Well the best part is yesterday we were having them fix the bolts, well we had them look at the remote to see how much that was going to cost us. Well, the only thing wrong with it was that the wires had come out of both ends of the remote, so they put them back in the way they were supposed to go and didn't charge us anything to fix that. Out of the 317.88 we only ended up having to pay 90.00 God is so good I wish I could always remember that even when things are hard and life in NOT so good.

Thats about it on our life for now. Kayla is coming home this weekend so I will post more on Monday about our weekend

God bless and have a great weekend

Love,
Dixie and David

It's been a while

Well its been a while since I have posted anything on my blog. A lot has changed in my life since my last post.

Me and Jeff are now divorced, I am living in Oklahoma and he is still in Virginia. I am currently in school. Jesse is living with my dad out in the country. He does better with him. Kenneth lived with me for a year and now he is with his dad in virginia. It was a hard decision to make but one I had to do for my sanity and to get him what he needs. The have better drs in Va than they do in Oklahoma. Kayla has been at the childrens center a places for specaial needs kids to get them the help that their parents can't give them. She has been there since December 5, 2008 and she is coming home October 1, 2009. I am do excited and nervous at the same time. I put here there because everytime I would pick her up I would pull my back out. She has learned to do standing pivots which helps a lot. She is doing most of the work and I don't have to do as much lifting. Which makes it really nice.

I met an amazing man. He walked into my life when I didn't think I needed anyone other than God and my kids. He showed me what its like to have someone really love you unconditionally. We are getting married May 15, 2010. I am excited but also nervous. I am excited because I finally found that guy that will always treat me the way I deserve to be treated. But also nervous that what if... something happens and he leaves me to? I know thats just doubts because of my last marriage I know im not perfect and I know David doesn't expect me to be.

Anyhoo, that is the latest on my life story....lol

Been a rough few days

Well the last few days have bene a emotional roller coaster. I have gotten to the point where I am just so overwhelmed with my life. I feel like what is the point anymore. I know that I deal with a lot more than most people on a daily basis with 3 special needs kids and I know God isn't going to give me more than I can handle WITH HIM. But geez does he have to trust me so much. I just want a break. I want people in this house to appreciate what I DO and not always focus on the negative and point out what I don't do. I have fallen into a really deep depression this week. Its a lot better today though. Me and hubby have been fighting for days about how I "NEED" his help and I need him there for me. I guess I am just at the point where I need someone to give something back to me and not me giving to everyone else all the time. ok I am done whinning for now its just frustrating how I work 7 days a week, take all the kids to their drs appts take them to karate 3 days a week and take them to church 2 days a week and sometime in between there I am supposed to clean the house have time for myself go grocery shopping and sleep. I just need a little help thats all.

Ok I am done whinning and complaing

On a good note Jesse graduated from ROTC quickstart today :)

Its time to let him grow up

Well today was one of those REALLY hard being a mom days. Jesse started JROTC today. I am so proud of him for wanting to do this. Between JROTC and Karate I think he will do really well. He is a really good kid most of the time. He just has an attitude problem the size of Texas lately.

Well his high school that he is going to is across a main street. Well I am really nervous about him walking to school. So I loaded Kayla and Kenneth up in the van to go pick him up today and he wanted to walk home with his friend. So I decided that I have to let go and trust him sometime and give him some independence.

Well he says he wants to walk to school everyday with his friend. Well the thing the really worries me is that he has to be at school at 6 am Mon-Thurs. So I asked him what about when its raining ( "I will take and umbrella") what about when its cold ( " I will take a coat") what about after time change and its still dark when you have to be at school ( I will take a flashlight") Ugh gonna love teenagers they have an answer for everything. I just have to trust him and trust that everything will be fine and he will make the right decisions.

The final day of camp

Well everyone made it through the sleepover in one piece. Everyone is really tired today. Kenneth is so proud of himself he got his yellow stripe today. He was so funny he was doing the "I have to go potty dance" I asked him if he had to go potty and he said after I get my yellow stripe. I said if you have to go then its ok to go. I promise you won't miss getting your yellow stripe. He got his stripe and he is so proud of it. The kids did so much this week and learned so much about Japanese culture. They are definitely going back next summer they had a blast and loved every minute of it.

We made it through Karate camp

Well everyone at karate survived the week of camp. The kids had so much fun and were worn out every night. It was good for them. Tonight they are having a sleepover then they will get up and have breakfast in the morning then do karate training. Then Kenneth will test for his yellow stripe. I know he will make it, he is more than ready. The kids will also do some demo routine that they learned this week at camp. I am kinda nervouse with my baby being gone all night everytime he has a sleepover he usually doesn't make it. But I am hoping that since Jesse is there with him that he will do ok. We called about an hour ago and they said that he was sleeping so maybe we will get lucky and he will sleep all night. I am so glad the kids have had so much fun this week its good for them to do something like this before school starts.

Jesse got his yellow belt

Well I had a very pround mommy moment last night. We had testing at Karate and Jesse made his yellow belt. The instructor had nothing but good stuff to say about Jesse how he is a good kid always ready to help out when needed and has preformed remarkbly. I am so proud of him. He made his yellow belt. I know he is proud of himself too.

CONGRATULATION JESSE WE ARE SO PROUD!!!!!!!!